Symphony in White

Dreamlog: Assortment from the past month or so…

I just entered my house, but I think in my dream it wasn’t my house.  In the entrance way on the small table we usually have a vase on, was a dog.  It was a small white poodle mix.  I knew it was one of Dach’s puppies.  I lifted the dog into my arms and started petting it and walked towards the living room.  As I continued to hug and stroke the small creature I noticed how abnormally thin he was, I could feel the rib cage and spine protruding from it’s fragile frame.  I took a seat on the couch and eventually Dach shows up.  He told me that I could keep the puppy, he was giving him away anyway.  I was pretty happy about that but I had to point out how poor the puppy’s condition was.  Dach didn’t believe it.  I told him to pet the dog.  His spine was bent.  But Dach only pet the front part which felt normal, I told him to continue and finally he noticed that there was something wrong.

It was bent, he tried to fix the puppy.  At this point the puppy started to look less and less like a puppy.  At first he still seemed normal, but his body parts were easily picked up and removed.  That’s what Dach did, he lifted the spine and tried to put it back in place correctly.  I thought that wasn’t right, he shouldn’t be doing that.  He’s hurting the puppy.  A piece of the same came out like triangular bone shape, and he placed it back hoping that it’d align properly but it didn’t and he continued to do so a few more times.  I told him to stop.  And finally he realized that there was something wrong with the creature.  I told him to take the dog to a vet, and he finally agreed.  At this point the dog looked more like a roasted chicken, and when he lifted the spine one final time I could see the inside of the dog.  It’s lungs and and heart a blackened slimy mesh of organs still beating and functioning.

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I was in Paris, in a boutique.  The colors were cool.  The reason I was here was for an internship or something related to school possibly?  It wasn’t a long term situation, I was nervous.  I couldn’t mess up.  The boutique sold clothes I think, I remember various blue and yellow fabrics and garments.  One of the ladies handed me a box, and told me to deliver it somewhere.  I wasn’t sure if I could do it as I didn’t know the area and language, but I accepted nevertheless.  When I left, I’m not sure what I was using as transportation.  I think it was a bike.  I road around the streets, everything was still in that blue tint and it almost seemed like the lighting they would use in clubs and such.  Eventually I came to this street that seemed like an alley.  My delivery was food of some sort.  I had to find the person to deliver it to.  I think I knew the person I was suppose to deliver it to, but I can’t recall who it is exactly.  I think it might’ve been Gimn or Ergg…  I came across this door that led to a club?  And that’s where I delivered the box to?  It was some chips and guacamole?  Some guy came through the crowd and just took the bag.  I left as soon as I could, and wandered around for the location again.  I remember there being a sign outside a door and someone talking to me?

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Adrian Brody was in my dream, cause I watched Darjeeling Limited, I was talking to him about something.  I just kept thinking he was really good looking.  8’D

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I was at work, and a new employee was being hired.  It was Laendila.  I haven’t seen her in so long so I was really happy to see that she was doing well.  Galiab was with me there as well.  Apparently we worked together.  I don’t remember too much of what else actually happened.  I do hope she’s doing well.  I have tried to contact her and to no avail.

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I was in that life drawing class in AI.  I just let the sketch take itself to where it needed to be.  The pencil led me where my mind just followed instead of over thinking.  It was really nice.  They turned out to be street fighter characters.

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It felt like I was in a seminar or something with in a big cafeteria like auditorium.  I was there with Latinke and there I saw my boss and Estev.  Latinke tried to talk to my boss about getting a job, and I just tried to stop her as I knew she probably wouldn’t like the job.  It scared me that she was interested.

And I think this might be a continuation, but somehow I was on a boat.  The boat was a small dinky little thing with a little canopy.  It was drifting somewhere and I was on the roof, laying beside Dach.

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I think it was lunch break and I thought I should go try some tea.  So I drove around unsure of what to get.  I just ended up going to Sunrise and got a drink.  I told myself there were doing something with Port of Subs or Subway or something and a sandwich didn’t sound bad.  But I was too preoccupied trying to decide what tea to try that I completely forgot to get actual food.  On my drive back I was just sad that I didn’t get food and couldn’t decide whether to go back or not.  In the end I didn’t even try the tea.

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I was with the hoard.  We were walking through a desert terrain, it looked very much like the Vegas desert around Red Rock.  Daenerys was talking about the unsullied.  She was extremely proud and happy that they had followed her.  And showed me how they would never betray her.  Even though they listened to everyone’s commands in her troop, they held loyalty to her above all else.  Eventually we hit a fork in the road.  Daenerys and a small group of us went ahead to settle down.  We saw a group of hoodlums in the distance.  She called upon the unsullied to defend us.  But the hoodlums were mainly just children.  They wore hoodies and she commanded them not to hurt them.  For the most part they were taken down easily, but there were a few among them that were pot bellied little dark creatures.  They had sinewy arms and ran fast.  They attacked with no haste and jumped onto our soldiers and started to rip their faces off.  It took multiple soldiers to take down these pygmies.  Some of our soldiers turned blue, almost like avatars, to fight back.  The pygmies seemed to multiply, and they started to attack us.  I woke up as one jumped onto my head.

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I was at home, but it looked like a mix of where we currently live and my grandparent’s old home.  Like the layout was more similar to my current house in certain parts, but the feel of it was definitely old, wooden, and poorly lit.  Ami was there.  We were talking and took a bath.  My dad showed up and he started getting angry about something.  I had a stack of artbooks and boardgames, and he just knocked them all down saying that they were useless.  I was too stunned and shocked to reply with anything decent other than what are you doing!?

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I was out for lunch with some coworkers.  We went somewhere and got some food, I didn’t really get that much.  I was worried if it would be enough to make me full for the rest of the time at work.  The neighborhood where we were getting the food seemed like it was LA or someplace in Cali.  We drove to the next destination to pick up Danira’s.   I remember thinking it was called Longhorn steakhouse or something like that where the logo was a cow skull.  (I think that place actually exists with that logo, but I’ve never been there.)  The inside was a completely different atmosphere from what the restaurant name was.  It looked like a really nice cafe with granite counter tops.  And behind the counter tops was a glass case of the food they had made that day.  Danira was just doing a pickup so if I wanted something from there it would have to be quick.  I wanted some soup or something, but it didn’t seem like they had any.  So I looked through their case, the item at the the end sides looked really delicious, but Sadha told me not to get the items on the side because it meant that they were the oldest and weren’t fresh anymore.  Eventually when I looked at the counter tops again they had soup!  It was clam chowder and that sounded delicious, but they wouldn’t let me buy the soup by itself.  I tried to talk them into it.

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I was out and about, I was meeting up with someone for food.  The first area I was in seemed like a very empty and dead neighborhood.  But I remember that I had some decent lunches here.  It seems like the older parts of Vegas but emptier.  There wasn’t anyone out on the streets.  I eventually finally met up with the girl.  I don’t think I knew who she was.  I asked what she had wanted to eat, and if there was anything around she was interested in and she didn’t really care.  So we continued to walk and talk.  I don’t really remember the conversations at all, but I think it was like the generic convos you have when you just met someone.  Eventually we walked further and the scenery reminded me more of China/San Fran.  There were more people and the buildings grew taller.  We turned the block and entered this building.  I was trying to set this girl up with Andny.  The building we walked into looked like a mall almost and from behind the glass doors I saw him.  He signaled that he restaurant was closed.  We were disappointed.

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[Ugh this dream was really weird.  All my dreams are weird, but this one felt wrong in so many ways.  I’m almost embarrassed to post about it.]

For the most part the dream felt like it was part of a crime show or something.  I was apparently involved with my boss.  And we hired a hooker.  But somewhere in the middle he began to choke her and I stood there doing nothing.  I don’t think I really thought there was anything wrong, but just accepted the scene as is.  Eventually I realized the gravity of what had happened and we had to dispose of the body.  We took the body out towards the dumpsters.  The room where she was strangled looked like a motel room or something, but the rest of the building looked more like a marketplace (kind of like the ones in China).  As we took the body out, we realized she was alive.  She moved around and struggled a little, but we dumped her out never the less hoping that she would just die in the trash.  Maybe we thought it was better for her to be dead so she couldn’t tell anyone about what had happened, but as we left the body she woke up.  She yelled at us, but I couldn’t confront her.  And as I continued to walk away I heard a gunshot.  She shot herself.  At least she was dead.

I headed back to work.  Pretending like nothing had happened, but eventually the police showed up.  They started asking questions.  I didn’t know what to do.  How do I lie.  Things started to fall apart slowly.  I couldn’t keep it to myself anymore.  I had to tell them what happened.  But I couldn’t at the same time out of fear of what would happen to myself.  But eventually I gave the police the location of where I was and where my boss was.  And that we had hired the woman.  I didn’t tell them anymore, but I’m sure they would be able to connect the dots.  I couldn’t face my boss anymore, I just had to get out of there.  What was I to do with my last day of freedom.

I saw Ergg as I went to get some food.  I don’t know why but seeing him was such a huge relief and I was happy that if these were my last few moments of freedom I could spend it with someone that I admired and liked.  I couldn’t tell him what was going to happen, but I just embraced him.  I think he was shocked at my response.  We waited in line to get food and I grabbed his hand but let go quickly.

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I was out for dinner.  I don’t remember what the occasion was or if there was even one.  When I arrived I think Latinke was the only one there so I sat next to her.  I haven’t seen her in a while so I was happy to catch up.  Eventually Marlio came and sat at the same table I was at.  I told them I was with Gimn.  More people came and people from the BFA were there.  I remember Andy, Narbyt, Imke F and Vejiar being there.  Marlio felt out of place at that table and asked if it was okay for him to change tables and I said of course it was, I understood.  Eventually Gimn came too and sat next to me.

[On a side note, holy crap a lot of these dreams center around getting food =_=;;;; ]

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I think we were on a quest, we had to enter the castle.  There were a series of small trials.  We passed the first two with ease.  We were wizards.  The first one was to simply open to gate, we weren’t sure what to expect but when we casted fire at the gates, it opened and casted them back but we were prepared and defended.  The next trial was similar to that as well.  They weren’t that difficult.  But when we got inside the trial changed.  There were a bunch of mannequins, but at the same time they were real people as well.  (one of the mannequins was Robbie Wadge!)  They held signs and we had to gather them.  They were spread out through the various rooms and everyone was disorganized and trying to bring them with them which led no where as we weren’t gathering anything, but merely taking for ourselves.  So I was finally fed up and tried to make an announcement, but someone kept talking.  I knew he wouldn’t stop so I just let him continue (who was this person =_=;;; I know in my dream I recognized this person but I can’t remember now)  When he finally stopped I tried to grab everyone’s attention and told them to bring them all to one room.  There were already a good bunch gathered already, so all we had left was to bring like three more.  I think the goal was 50.  But I couldn’t find anymore.  I finally saw Marlio and Nabri and I said their images could count as a sign!  We only needed one more…

Komilicious,

How is our timing so horrible!  I miss you terribly.  I want to know what’s going on in your life and I have so much to tell you as well.

I love you dearly and I hope we speak soon!

Endless kisses and love,
Hokilicious

No dreams, no will, no courage, nothing.  Just empty promises and regrets.

How I wish I could make all our silly words become a reality, how pathetic I am for not being able to do anything.

I think my eye hand coordination has decreased drastically.  Things keep falling out of my hands…

Dreamlog: Parkour escape

Latinke and I were running from the authorities.  I don’t really know why they were after us, but they were.  We were in this abandoned building trying to find the way out.  I remember seeing them, but all I saw was their silhouettes outlined by a light source behind them. We turned a corner and we lost them, but they would catch up soon enough.  The building didn’t seem to have another exit aside from the way we entered.  How do we escape.  We were doing free running and parkour moves throughout the building as we ran.  We went up and down various rooms trying to find our escape.  Finally we reached a dead end, it looked a bit like a bathroom stall where the windows were high and close to the ceiling.  We jumped up some structures to be next to the window and looked outside.  How do we get out.  I punched the glass and unlatched the window.  We peered out.  There was a few fences but the fall was also far.  I looked at my hands, they were already bruised from all the parkour we did previously.  Would I be able to withstand this jump?  It felt like a decent amount of time passed while I pondered upon this decision.  When two guys showed up from around the corner.  They were with the authorities, but I knew I could trust one of them.  [It was Nicve, but I didn’t recognize him as that in my dream]  When the other one left, we decided to go for it.

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Something about a samsung phone… I really can’t remember anything else about it.

Dreamlog: Banquet of mice

This was our punishment.  We were all transformed into various animals.  I don’t remember the reason why we were punished, but Tyler O. and I were turned into mice.  They kept us in a cellar in the sewers, but since the place was worn and old and we were small we were able to slip out through the cracks.  Both of us were able to squeeze out, while the others who had turned into slightly larger animals had to go and find escape routes that suited their size.

We wandered around for help, but I don’t think anyone was able to understand us.  Finally we went into this strip of shops and a lady was there to help us.  By that point I don’t think I thought we were mice anymore, but just people looking for something.  The attendant spoke Chinese, but she had only recently moved there to Shanghai.  She was trying to learn Shanghainese and spoke some phrases and switched back and forth confused on which were the appropriate words.

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[The setting was almost exactly like how that gallery in NY felt like]

Just getting off the elevator I rushed into the room where Miko was.  I was so ecstatic to see her again.  We were going to go out for food.  I don’t know why everyone else wasn’t interested.  We were going to go with a large group of people, but our  excitement led us to leave first.  She asked to use the elevator right in front of the room she was in, but I said no that one doesn’t lead to the top floors so we walked a bit further to a pair of red elevators.  Those led to the higher floors.  We waited in the elevator for the rest of the group to show up, but they didn’t.  Had they used the wrong ones?  We didn’t care, we just wanted to explore on our own and we were hungry.  I asked which floor there would be food on, and she picked the 5th.  When we got out, it was just a hallway, but Miko said that she knew there was something there!  We went through the first door and it seemed like a banquet of some sort.  Even though it wasn’t extremely crowded I thought we seemed out of place, and it seemed like something that wasn’t open to the public.  She walked in with no shame and hesitation.  I was in awe.  I just followed along and we sat next to this group of elderly people.

At first they stared at us, but eventually they didn’t really care enough.  There were sheets of papers on the table.  I’m not sure what they were for, but there was a pen there that looked an awful lot like the pen I bought at Borders.  I had been trying to find refill ink for it, I picked it up and it was a weighty pen, I thought this must be the same brand.  But my attention quickly changed back to the people I was with.  A bowl of shrimp was passed down, Miko took one and so did I.  We didn’t have any utensils etc but we ate it never the less.  It was raw, and had some sort of sprinkling on top.

[I think Latinke was in this dream too at some point]

Dreamlog: Bits 3/8

The office was brighter than usual, the blinds were open the sun was shining.  Ginm came to the office, only to get chewed out by Sadha questioning him about what he’s doing with his life and so on.  He had a new piece.  It looked like a 3D rendering of a chandelier.  It was a spiral of lights that gave off a red tint almost like fireworks.  And there were suppose to be acrobats hanging off of it.  Although Sadha gave an interrogation he was unaffected and left.

Ergg was also working in the other room.  I think we were doing something together and had to discuss something.  And Kinc came by, I haven’t seen him since high school and I greeted him, but he didn’t recognize me.  It wasn’t that long… I thought he was joking.  So I told him who I was and he still had no recollection.  Ergg thought it was strange as well, but reconciled me saying that at least he still remembered me.

[boring and depressing… I need some exciting dreams, to make up for the lack of excitement in my life at least…]